“In times of selflessness and in times being with your self.”

by red...

As defines selflessness- “unselfishness, quality of putting other people's needs before one's own”

What more we could give? What more you will retain? And do you exactly know if it is the right thing to do?

Maybe these questions are quite confusing. But as you finished reading this article, maybe you will understand later.


Sometimes there are questions in this life that we wanted to give an answer. We get into some situations that are uncontrollable even if we want to fight for it.

“I have a friend, her name is Yeng. One night she called me asking for advice. I let her tell to me her problem on moment. Before she started to speak I can hear her muffling voice over the line. She told me that her parents took her from his boyfriend for the reason that they don’t like him. She loses her work and she loses her baby etch… As she was telling many things, I got speechless and nothing to say about what we went through. She lose many things in life and still she stand I front of many people that she’s okay. But truth is she is not. And on that evening she told me everything. Everything… ”  

She has a sad story and all I can do to relieve that sorrows she feels, is to say that; “someday or one day everything will be alright.” After saying that, somehow I can say that she’s fine.

 But truly I felt like I was gutted. I felt the pain when she was telling those things.


Yes, it’s a fact that our families or other relatives do have the just to tell what is right for us, but not all the time. Parents may know what are the best for their kids, but as kids grows they developed. They need to find their way. At some point guidance will be there all the time. 

And that guidance also has its limitations. 

I understand also the situation that she has a big respect to her parents that’s why she chooses to listen to them. But choosing what is good in the eyes of other people if it’s not making you happy. It’s doesn’t make sense at all!

If in return, is crying every night whenever you realize you didn’t fight for your love.

Sometimes it is true that we need to consider some things and situations in our battles in life. But in each battle we should also consider ‘what are we fighting for?” we cannot win if we do not have a fixed structure and goals in a battle. 

There are only two options, the “yes and no.”

You will say yes if you are willing to fight on what you are fighting for. But remember that saying “yes” also is considering that you have to sacrifice whatever the consequence maybe.

Along with this is also saying “no”. Which also have feed backs? That’s why at some point, it’s really a never ending battlefield. 

But in every battle, fighting toward is not always the answer.

Sometimes a slow pace of understanding on what you are really fighting for is the fastest way.

-Because we miss a thing sometimes.

We miss to fight for our selves.

Sometimes we try to show to everybody that we can whatever ordeals we are facing.
So we show them a happy face and strong conviction that you can make it. But it’s what you really feel?

It’s wrong!

You don’t give time to your self to breathe…

Sometimes the best way to stick on to the fight is to change the track.

It’s not a selfish way if we don’t care sometimes. For it doesn’t mean we doesn’t care at all.

Sometimes we need space or time to discover new things without the help of other people. 

So when we are ready to fight again… there will be no turning back.

Because all the things you need are kept in your heart…

i write

I write 
Because I want to share the things I see.
To make somebody listen to the song that I’m singing
To tell to anyone that I also feel anger
And sometimes can’t control my sudden emotions.

I write
Because I need a way on how to express my loneliness
And in times that I need to break the cold feeling of sadness.
In order to feel great and can enjoy my happiness.

I write
Because I want somebody who can read my soul 
Deep within him, he will realize I am not his foe
But a friend leading him to the mountains
Were we can stand tall

I write
Because I wanted to tell every step of my journey
The beautiful thing that my eyes can reach
The humming voice in my heart with beautiful melody 
And my feelings flowing until stars wont shine on me.

SOME

Are there really lonely people in the world? Or they are just choosing to be that way? And maybe they only want to be alone in their lives…

Sometimes some people only see what they wanted to see. They intelligently give orders right away. They are knowledgeable in so many ways. But they forget to realize how cleverly they hurt somebody…

Some people live beyond their dreams. They try hard to achieve whatever they want in life. Some reach their goals and value the success. But some are still looking for another term of glory. Because they can’t be satisfied. They challenge their selves and always try to hit another blow  Some suddenly give up. They stop dreaming. For they realized, it’s not what they want or simply because it’s not meant for them.

Some people live by faith. Because they believe on what they believe in. But they forget to see what’s really happening around them. They become blind to the things they see. And deaf to the voice in needing. Is it a faith of materiality. Or Faith is only for human fidelity. 

Some people lie. They lie on what really they are. They hide their feelings. They refuse to show their colors. -Maybe because they are surrounded by so many lying man. 
-Man with a smiling heart while crying down his soul. 
He laughs so loud to hide the sorrows.
His face is beaming in front of all. But as he turns back, he sigh’s so endless down to his core.

Some people are living by rules. They spend every hours and minutes like a precious stone. They value schedule and take every detail surely noted. But when they get into a situation which time is being the problem. They "tic like a clock" for they realize their time is running out,  for the most valuable and meaningful things they didn't give much time.

Some of them are -we.

And "we" dont have to be somebody... 

It’s not how we perfectly move above this earth. It’s not how we perfectly perform every task we face.

But it’s on how we stand on our decisions if it’ll be for good or not.

Though what we think of are true beyond our beliefs, perceptions and principles; because all of us are unique. 

-Different colors and different personalities.

and all we need to each other is a simple -

"respect".

   


 

how are you?

How are you?

How are you? Isn’t familiar?

A simple question, asking what you feel or what is your situation at this moment?
A simple question that’s also asking something about you…
A very simple question with a deep meaning…

Many of us or all of us when we see our friend often greet each other. Saying hi and hello, kissing each other and other usual things we do when we meet a friend, especially when we didn’t see then for a long time, right? 

And most of the time the conversation start’s with question “how are you?”

Doesn’t it feel good when somebody wants to know what happened to you from the last time you’ve met each other?

Along with this question there’s a story behind of it. A story each one of us that sometimes we refuse to tell to anyone. Perhaps, we practically don’t want to talk about it, maybe because it’s not interesting to tell, or… we are just hiding something?

If I will ask you right now?
How are you? 


One time a friend asked me that question. Basically I said, “Fine!” “I’m fine!”
But on that day I don’t really know what I feel. I party with my friends. I go out with them. But on that day I was so clueless.

 My friend keeps on telling what he went through. I’m just sitting besides him, listening and trying to laugh to things he laughed with.

It’s just funny that people around me know me from being a funny guy. Sometimes I asked my self do they really like me or they only like the person I’m showing to them?

Sometimes we deny the truth.

We smile though we’re hurt.

We laugh though we are broken.

Because sometimes it’s too hard to find those people who are truly interested to know us and to feel what we really feel…

Although at times not only other people can ask “how we are”. Because there are times we also need to ask our selves.

How are we?